Oh I got this from Ying2's blog....thought that its quite meaningful....haha....

Tree
===

People call me "Tree".

I had dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U.

There's one gal who I love a lot but never dared
to go
after.

She didnt have a pretty face, or good figure,
nor
an
outstanding charm.

She was just a very ordinary gal. liked her. I
really
liked her.

I liked her innocence, her frankness, her
intelligence
and her fragility.

Reason for not going after her was because I felt
somebody
so ordinary like her was not a good match for
me.

I was also afraid that after we were together
all
the
feelings would vanish.

I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.

I felt that if she were my gal, she'd be mine
ultimately
& I didn't have to give up everything just for
her.

The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3
years.

She watched me chase other gals, and I have made
her
heart cry for 3 years.

She was a good actress and me a demanding
director.

When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into
us.

She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!"
before
running off.

The next day, her eyes were swollen like a
walnut.

I didn't want to know what caused her to cry.

Later that day, I returned from soccer training
to get
something
& watched her cry in the classroom for an hour
or
so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her.

There was once when both of them quarreled.

I know that based on her character she's not the
type
that will start off the quarrel.

But I still sided my girlfriend.

I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and
walked off
with my girlfriend.

The next day, she was laughing & joking with me
like
nothing happened.

I know she was hurt but she didn't know deep down
inside I was hurt too.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked
her
out.

Later that day, I told her I had something to
tell
her.

I told her about my break up.

Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too,
about her getting together.

I knew who the guy was. His pursuit for her had
been
the talk of the School.

I didnt show her my heartache, just smiles & best
wishes.

Once I reached home, I couldn't breath.

Tears rolled & I broke down.

How many times have I seen her cry for the man
who
didnt acknowledge her presence?

During graduation, I read a sms in my hp.

It said, "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's
pursuit.

Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay......"




Leaf

===

People call me Leaf.

During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close
terms
with a guy as buddy kind.

But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a
feeling
I never should have learnt - Jealousy.

Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only
together
for 2 months.

When they broke up, I hid my happiness.

But after a month, he got together with another
gal.

I liked him & I know he liked me.

But why won't he pursue me?

Since he loves me why he didn't he make the first
move?

Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would
hurt.

After some time, I began to suspect that this
was
one
sided love.

If he didnt like me, why did he treat me so
well?

It's beyond what you will normally do for a
friend.

I know his likes, his habits.

But his feelings towards me I can never figure
out.

You can't expect me a gal to ask him.

Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side.

Care for him, accompany him, and love him.

Hoping that one day, he will come to love me.

Because of this, I waited for him.

Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue
waiting.

The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3
years.

At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me.

Everyday he pursues me.

He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow
off a
leaf from a tree.

In the end, I realized that I wanted to give
this
wind
a small footing in my heart.

I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better
land.

Finally leaf left the tree, but the tree only
smiled &
didn't ask me to stay.

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit.

Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay......





Wind

====

Because I like a gal called leaf.

Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to
be a
gust wind.

A wind that will blow her away.

When I first met her, it was 1 month after I
transfer
to the new school.

I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me
playing soccer.

During ECA time, she will always be sitting
there.

Be it alone or with her friends looking at him.

When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her
eyes.

When he looked at her, there's a smile in her
eyes.

Looking at her became my habit.

Just like she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something
amissed.

I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of
uneasiness.

The senior was also not there as well.

I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my
seniors scolding her.

Tears were in her eyes while he left.

The next day, I saw her at her usual place,
looking at
him.

I walked over and smiled to her.

Took out a note & gave to her.

She was surprised.

She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note.

The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and
left.

Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow
her
away.

It's not that leaf heart is too heavy.

It because leaf never want to leave tree.

I replied her note with this statement and
slowly
she
started to talk to me
& accept my presents & phone calls.

I know that the person she loves is not me.

But I have this perseverance that one day I will
make
her like me.

Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her
no
less than 20 times.

Every time, she will divert away from the topic.

But I never give up.

If I decide I want her to be mine, I will
definitely
use all means to win her over.

I can't remember how many times I have declared
my
love to her.

Although I know she will try to divert but I
still
bear a small ray of hope.

Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend.

I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone.

I asked, "What are you doing? How come you
didn't
want
to reply?"

She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't
believe my ears.

"I'm nodding my head" she replied loudly.

I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a
taxi
and rush to her place & press her doorbell.

During the moment when she opens the door, I
hugged
her tightly.

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit.

Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay ....
----

haha.....isn't nice??????.......thanks Ying2.....borrowing this from u k??????

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Laughing Gas

Hey back to update my blog....haha.....my computer caught a virus just now but luckily my uncle is damn pro so he got it fixed for me....in two hours.....haha....thanks uncle!!!!!

Anyway,
Sweet Honey: I love u lots too.....and I like it when u call me sweets!!!!!!So I'll call u sweet honey...haha...ok so not right but left for u....happy????? Yeah I also agree with my sis too....anyway.....I really hope u can come this Fri....I really do....looking forward to seeing u!!!!!! Then we can like study together or sth....then u'll have at least some motivation after seeing me...haha....enough of the crap....gotta reply in my entry coz what I wanna say to u is too much......some stupid word limit in the tag board....
How often do I see u online.....how often do we talk on the phone...I really miss u.....all the times we had...like what u said the other day......u suddenly thought of all those and started grinning to urself...heh....so the moral of the story is........COME THIS FRIDAY WITH ME!!!!!!!....haha....ok?????

Anyway.....today was the second day of the GP camp....had lotsa fun...everyone caught the laughing gas.....I was laughing so hard together with Vicki, Sze, Phyillis and Xiaosi.....damn funny....heh....that stupid Earnest the cookie monster took my shoe and threw it across the AVA....omg....I will get back it him one day.....but he's also damn funny la....made us laugh so much....then Xiaosi put Phyilli's shoe in the dustbin and she didn't even realise it until like 1 million years later....heh.....oh yeah.....and we ate so much today....passed Famous Amos cookies, Poiful sweets, Biscuits and stuffs around....heh.....I think Mr Lim saw but he closed one eye....haha....I think we are like damn greedy....kept eating as if we were at a picnic....
Yeah so went for lunch at HarbourFront with Sze, Petrina, Amelia, John and Johnathan.....
After lunch we (the girls) wanted to go to the toilet so we walked there.....then John and Johnathan followed behind.....that blind John was too engrossed sms-ing that he followed us into the Female Toilet....he wouldn't have even realised that had Sze Hui not told him....haha.....and I couldn't stop laughing in the toilet after that.....and it didn't help that Petrina shouted from the cubicle saying that she got locked inside and she couldn't unlock the door....haha....so I laughed even harder....and my laughter got pretty horrible.....heh.....
So after that outside the toilet I teased John about that and started laughing again.....this time it got so bad that my stomach hurt so much that I had to like squat down.....heh.....so I laughed for at least another ten minutes before I regained my composure......

Oh yeah and after the GP camp I let them try my heavenly Japanase Milk Candy......Petrtina thinks its ok only but I think its damn nice la.....even Sze and Vicki thinks so.....and that stupid John Jiemei says its horrible.....disgusting...not that nice at all.....I think he has lousy taste coz he doesn't know how to appreciate such heavenly sweets.....kept insulting my sweets.....sigh.....I feel damn sad for my sweet......the one sweet wasted on John....haha....!!!!!!!!

So they all went home and Sze went back to Crescent to collect her 'O' Level Certificate......John took NEL today so I took the bus and train with him....wanted to go to Cold Storage to buy somemore of my milk sweets but decided not to....haha.....so in the bus I ate his Mentos Power Gum....haha....quite nice....its nicer than normal chewing gum...then John Jiemei wanted to stick his gum on the seat....haha....bad guy.....but at least he didn't do it la.....he and Johnathan only stuck their gum on the chair in the AVA.....they claimed its because the chair was creaking and they wanted to fix it....haha.....how NICE OF THEM.....I thought it was damn funny so I started laughing again.....

Then in the train station John bought the standard ticket coz he didn't bring his EZ- Link card.....being the nice girl I am.....I told him that he could actually return the ticket later and get back the one-dollar deposit......but HE DIDN'T WANNA BELIEVE ME!!!!!.....He said I was trying to trick him and make him embarrass himself....haha....lousy guy.....totally ignorant....I bet he hasn't used the standard ticket before.....damn toot...heh.....

Yeah so I came home and slept till almost 8.....heh....had dinner...while my sis brought my com to my uncle's place to be fixed.....haha.....now its alright and working fine again!!!!!!

10 Years Ago (Primary 1), I...
1. cried on my first day in school
2. was quite tiny I think
3. liked to fiddle with my two ponytails during lessons I think
4. forced my friend Amy to help me do my Chinese homework....the kind where u trace the dotted lines....
5. cannot remember much.....blah.....

5 Years Ago (Primary 6), I...
1. had quite high for Maths Prelims....haha....
2. had a tough time deciding between CGS and SCGS.....but glad that I chose Crescent anyway.....haha
3. cried on the day PSLE results were released because of a stomachache
4. went on Superstar Virgo with the whole P6 level....was damn fun....
5. felt quite sad to be separated from my friends.....but I hardly even contact them now....haha.....

3 Years Ago (Secondary 2), I...
1. was working so hard to do triple Science......haha...
2. really got closer to Eileen the Panda and also Pea
3. wrote to a Japanese pen-pal who hasn't replied till now
4. did not know if I should drop HCL
5. went for my first campfire I THINK....I think only....not too sure though

2 Years Ago (Secondary 3), I...
1. Loved the five of us....u know who.....
2. Aimed to get into committee with the other four....those horrible interviews....
3. had to adapt to my new class
4. did pioneering
5. went to Daisou for the first time

1 Year Ago (Secondary 4), I...
1. loved the air-conditioned container classrooms
2. loved my class
3. kept eating in class with Eileen and always getting got by our dear Miss Tan....all Eileen's fault....
4. studied quite hard
5. was stressed.....but had lotsa fun too....

So Far This Year, I...
1. made lotsa new friends
2. spent quite alot
3. learnt how to play pool
4. ???????
5. ???????.....cannot think of anymore right now

Yesterday, I....
1. went to Esplanade to study
2. drank a cup of Espresso that did not work to keep me awake at all
3. talked for so long on the phone that I nearly fell asleep
4. tricked my friend
5. could not get over my dinosaur egg nuts

Today, I ....
1. went out for lunch
2. watched Pride....dman nice....poor Yamamoto though
3. ate alot of junk food
4. went to my cousin's place to watch Shrek 2 again...haha...
5. received presents from my aunt.

Tomorrow I will...
1. try to go jogging with my sis
2. go to church
3. stop pigging out
4. go to my uncle's house
5. ???????

no title

Been out alot....haha......and too tired and lazy to blog..........heh......will blog when I feel like it.......

shopping spree

My ankle is aching.......probably due to too much walking....
Just came back from a shopping spree with my mum.....woohoo.....haven't bought that much stuffs for quite some time already so felt really great.....yes....shopping is so exciting.....heh......best buy was that pink Zara skirt....wanted to buy when I first saw it.....really glad that my mum has bought it for me today.....yeah!!!!!!!....haha....
Bought some other clothes too.....a pity sis wasn't with us.....but well.....she had her share of shopping yesterday already........haha.....oh yeah I ate so much today so I've gotta cut down!!!!!!But anyway that Gelato ice-cream was supposed to be 90 sth % fat free......haha.......more shopping on Wed.........

qs

Too free.....had nth better to do....got this from Friendster:

01. name: Joyce
02. hobbies: Sleeping, eating, shopping
03. gender: girl
04. age: 16
05. date of birth: 14 Nov
06. horoscope: Scorpio
07. school: CHIJ Kellock, Crescent Girls' School, SAJC
08. address: Singapore/Japan
09. email add: yap_yanlin@hotmail.com
10. hair: long but not too long
11. eye colour: I think its black
12. hair colour: black
13. right or left handed: right
14. marital status: single
15. siblings: an elder sis
16. last 4 digits of ur no.: shhhh
17. when's ur bedtime: depends
18. do u hav a car: no
19. what type of car do you want: uh.......something elegant.....preferably Japanese model
20. brand of cars : Japanese models
21. tried smoking: NO
22. drink alc0h0l: yeah
23. been hurt emotionally: uh......
24. kept a secret from anyone: haha yeah
25. been on stage?: yes
26. favourite colour: all colours
27. fave food: all food
28. fave drinks: all drinks
29. lucky number: I'll keep that to myself
30. disney: uh....anything one that is cute????!!!!!!!
31. fave sports: no preference
32. fave song : Japanese songs........J-pop
33. fave movie: Quite a few
34. fave subject: Break
35. friend: All

*right now*
36. wearing now: shorts and shirts
37. hairstyle: let down....heh....cut bangs again for the third time
38. looking at: monitor
39. thinking of: what to write
40. listening to: nth

do u believe in
41. love?: yeah of coz
42. faith: yeah!!!!!
43. urself: YES!!!!!!!!
44. ghost: uh.......I dunno also
45. angel: yeah
*in the last 24hrs*
46. worn jeans: nope
47. cleaned ur rooms: no
48. cried: no
49. met someone new: yes....Annie the hairstylist
50. last person i talk to on the phone: My uncle
*love life*
51. do u hav a gf/bf: nope
52. haf a secret admirer: dunno....dun think so la
53. do u wanna get married?: yeah next time
54. do u plan on having kids?: uh yeah
55. hw old u wanna be when u get married:
after 24
56. hw old u wanna be when u haf ur first
child: 26.....being a young mother is cool!!!!!!
57. how many kids do u want: Depends
58. would u hav kids before marriage: NO!!!!!!!
59. do u haf a crush: haha
60. wat do u wan most in a relationship:love,happiness,trust
*either one*
61. pink or black: pink
62. kiss or hug: hugs
63. summer or winter: winter in Hokkaido!!!!!
64. sunny or rainy: Sunny
65. chocolate or vanilla: dpends on my mood
66. hanging out or chilling: either one will do
67. music or tv:music.....Japanese music
68. nite or day: depends
69. guys or girls: both
70. slpin or eatin: both..one after another....
71. love or lust: Love
72. silver or gold: Silver
73. sunset or sunrise: Both are as beautiful
74. phone or in person: see who
75. diamond or pearl: Diamond

*The person u know who is...*
76. most cute: Quite a few Japanese guys I've seen around are really gorgeous.....heh.....u can hang out at Meidiya at Liang Court and Kino and u'll see them......hehe
77. most caring: my mum
78. most understanding: my mum
79. funniest: huh
80. Helpful: alot of them....my family and my Crescent friends.....oh yeah Eileen is always so helpful....she rawks
81. most shuai: Some Japanese guy I have seen around and Japanese celebrities
82: most smart: Everyone in my class
83: most loyal: I dunno

screwed

screwed.screwed.screwed

The camp was far from exciting.Did not want to run for the Exco Election though I wanted to at the start of the camp. One reason that I really shouldn't say coz it hurts.But thats not the only reason.Another reason is because its really not worth it.So much hard work for 2 miserable,pathetic leadership pts. I know I am one who cannot be committed to all these heavy workload.
But some seniors nominated me for the eclection thought I insisted that I did not want to run for Exco. In the end I had to speak on stage during the election. I decided to deliberately screw it up. Pleaded with everyone not to vote for me (for those who intended to).And yes.Everyone spoke so well for at least 3 mins. They really wanted to get into Exco. Yet I screwed mine up.Crapped for less than a min. Wasn't the least enthusiastic at all.Everyone saw that.Even the teachers.As expected I didn't get elected.I was relieved to learn of that.Am I sick or what.I dunno.No one would be happy if they got voted out.But I was.I think I am such a loser. Fear of challenges and letting that stupid reason affect me so greatly.Not that I regret screwing up my speech.I am not regreting it.Not yet.So now I am just a member.My CCA record will be so pathetic.Not that I want it to.Beiying has been asking me to join hockey. Now I think I will.Selection is in August and I really do not have much time to train though they say the girls' hockey team is lousy and everyone there are just beginners.But I dun think I will get into the team anyway. Many will not.But wells I'll just train "hard" and we will see when the time comes.

Everything is in such a mess.