I'm so so so upset. I suspect I might have gotten the size of my birks wrong. and Amanda has already ordered! shit. I'm so depressed. and disillusioned. I really really hope it fits alright when it arrives. I can't waste my money! SHIT.


Watched the Oprah Winfrey Show this morning and the topic was on weight loss. haha. I'm feeling ABIT motivated now. To drink lots and lotsa water and to not eat after 7.30. Then again, I dun think I'm disciplined enough. At least not as disciplined as MY FRIEND. (think: yogurt for breakfast, 2 small pieces of organic rice cakes with ham and greens for lunch, and a granola bar and a salad for the rest of the day).

Her diet is so healthy, but I think I'll die if I follow her. I mean, I'll be hungry ALL THE TIME surviving on so little. Hmm. But I'm already trying to cut down on carbo (note: TRYING). haha. Its partly cos going easy on carbo is better for the body, its not so much to lose weight. okay, maybe its also cos I wanna go back to being 45kg la.

But dun worry, I wont become aneroxic or bullimic. I love food too much. At the most I'll just feel damn guilty and keep complaining after eating something sinful thats all. I wont purge.heh.

I ate alot today anyway. SIGH. If only I could be half as disciplined as MY FRIEND.
I had all these today:
1. a BIG bowl of oats with cereal. really BIG bowl (breakfast cum lunch)
2. a glass of yogurt juice
3. an orange
4. 3 sushis (tea-time)
5. rice (dinner)
6. an apple


Anyway while out with The Friend today, I got swayed by her, and bought a packet of organic brown rice crackers. Hey, its only 8 calories per piece. haha. I'm sure I would feel happy eating it. teeheehee.


Oh yeah, I watched Howl's Moving Castle this morning! like finally. haha. Much nicer than Ice Age 2, which I'm so ashamed to say that I actually feel asleep halfway through the show. haha. Its high time I returned Karmeng his Ice Age 2. Been hogging it for wayyyyyy to longgggggggggg.


Pics are up by the way. Long over due pics. haha. '17.05.06'.