And so after the longest talk ever with my sis last night, I think I'm probably not going. Long story. Now I've to do the withdrawal letter.

What a drag!

I officially declare I'm the most indecisive, fickle person ever. At least for now. One minute I decide that I'm gg, and the next second, I start to have second thoughts and tell myself that maybe I shld not go after all. Then moments later, I tell myself that its an opportunity not to be missed. Yet, then again, I get so put off thinking of all the preparation.

Like seriously. blah.

The pros and cons are weighing on my mind every second, every minute of my present life. I just wish I could make a firm decision and get over it once and for all. Like what Sam says, if I keep thinking negative thoughts, they'd be endless, just go for it, and everything will fall into place.

whats 6 mths compared to a yr? =(

I'm supposed to be studying now, but really, Cell Bio can kill. =(

Its a very major turn-off, no?
I mean, I could pretend, but its so hard. I feel so disturbed by this facade. And this only serves to undermine my presence. Suddenly I realise I might have made the right decision, because some things are just worth more.
Sometimes, I just wish you could be more innocent.

I always make an effort not to be rude (outside home, tt is LOL). But sometimes, I appear rude without realising it myself. I really didnt mean to seem so rude and aloof and all (maybe cos I dunno whats the right thing I should have done), and I dont like it when I come across as being so, and so I end up feeling so pissed and upset with myself and I start to feel bad about it. And the feeling so so terrible
=(