The UnderNoRoof-cum-Famine Camp yesterday was quite fun. It wasn't as dull as the dry run the week before.

I recently suddenly started to brood over my A Level results. I had wanted more than an ABB, and I definitely felt that I deserved better grades, esp Bio, which I studied really hard for. I had A for Bio prelims and I remember clearly Mrs Ang telling the class that those who got an A for prelims would surely secure and A for A Levels. Not true at all. But I really did study very hard for Bio. It had been my best subject all along (I think). Some pple might think that I should be thankful, and even feel lucky to have gotten such grades. But hey, I certainly feel that I deserve more. If only they even knew how hard I studied right from the start of Year 2, and esp towards the A Levels. And u noe what, I totally hate it when pple think that Science is a dumping ground, and for medicine rejects, just cos their intake is big. Just a few days ago when I told my friend that I'm gg to NUS Science, he was like " huh, why? u got in by random or what? ". I was totally pissed.

Well, I didn't get in by random. I chose it. It was my first choice for NUS. I didn't study like mad for my A Levels only to get into a dumping ground u know? Definitely, its not as prestigious as Medicine or Law, but still, its not some lousy course. And I'm very sure about that. I'm feeling ok about going into Science, though Mass Com is interesting too. Okay, dun make me go on abt my dilemma over NTU Mass Com and NUS Science. haha. We've had enough of that.

Yeah, Science is not a dumping ground. Its just popular, maybe? haha.

I'm so so so upset. I suspect I might have gotten the size of my birks wrong. and Amanda has already ordered! shit. I'm so depressed. and disillusioned. I really really hope it fits alright when it arrives. I can't waste my money! SHIT.


Watched the Oprah Winfrey Show this morning and the topic was on weight loss. haha. I'm feeling ABIT motivated now. To drink lots and lotsa water and to not eat after 7.30. Then again, I dun think I'm disciplined enough. At least not as disciplined as MY FRIEND. (think: yogurt for breakfast, 2 small pieces of organic rice cakes with ham and greens for lunch, and a granola bar and a salad for the rest of the day).

Her diet is so healthy, but I think I'll die if I follow her. I mean, I'll be hungry ALL THE TIME surviving on so little. Hmm. But I'm already trying to cut down on carbo (note: TRYING). haha. Its partly cos going easy on carbo is better for the body, its not so much to lose weight. okay, maybe its also cos I wanna go back to being 45kg la.

But dun worry, I wont become aneroxic or bullimic. I love food too much. At the most I'll just feel damn guilty and keep complaining after eating something sinful thats all. I wont purge.heh.

I ate alot today anyway. SIGH. If only I could be half as disciplined as MY FRIEND.
I had all these today:
1. a BIG bowl of oats with cereal. really BIG bowl (breakfast cum lunch)
2. a glass of yogurt juice
3. an orange
4. 3 sushis (tea-time)
5. rice (dinner)
6. an apple


Anyway while out with The Friend today, I got swayed by her, and bought a packet of organic brown rice crackers. Hey, its only 8 calories per piece. haha. I'm sure I would feel happy eating it. teeheehee.


Oh yeah, I watched Howl's Moving Castle this morning! like finally. haha. Much nicer than Ice Age 2, which I'm so ashamed to say that I actually feel asleep halfway through the show. haha. Its high time I returned Karmeng his Ice Age 2. Been hogging it for wayyyyyy to longgggggggggg.


Pics are up by the way. Long over due pics. haha. '17.05.06'.

I keep eating and eating and eating. and after that I keep complaining and complaining and complaining. and feel super guilty abt eating like a cow. SUPER GUILTY. yet I still eat. the mental torment sucks. big time.

SHIT LAH.

The afternoon was spent in the library digging out good books (I hope) to pass my time. I'm so bored at home I'm gg nuts. Yeah I'm giving tuition now, but I dun really enjoy it. Its the location I guess. haha. I so dread gg for tuition lessons. But, I need to earn at least abit, cos I've been spending way too much.

Anw after lib, I met up with Pet and we shopped abit. Lunched at the Crystal Jade XiaoLongBao at Taka after that. We each bought this same top that was on sale from Koi Noburi cos if we buy two its cheaper. haha. We're like so ah soh-ish, but who cares. Pple behave like that during sales.
It was originally priced at 42.90, but gg for only $18 now. And if we buy 2, its $30. so that means we each paid $15 for the top. heh, a pretty good deal. They didnt allow trying, but I smuggled it into the fitting room anyway.

Anw, dun ask me out on shopping trips anymore. We can go tanning, eat (yeah EAT. see what I mean.), chill, or meet up for drinks. whatever. just no more shopping. at least not for now. cos I'm saving up to shop in Bangkok. so no more shopping.

I'm so depressed. tuition tmr. SIGH. I actually secretly hope the mother of the P4 boy sacks me. cos if I'm the one to drop him, I must pay the stupid agency 50% of the first mth's fee. Then again, I'll be left with only 2 students then, and thats so little money. I'm money faced la. shucks.


I dun really enjoy teaching Pri sch Science though, its too generalised, like what Pet said. Maths is fine.

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me: okay ,so plants need carbon dioxide, water, and light to carry out photosynthesis. The leaves make food.

P4 boy: huh, so can it eat? If I give the leaf food.

me: er, no. It can't. It makes its own food.

P4 boy : but if I give the leaf rice to eat?

me: cant. er, it cant eat. (in desperation) cos it has no mouth!

P4 boy: (he proceeds to vandalise his Science textbook by drawing eyes and a mouth on THE LEAF) see got mouth. if I put a grain of rice there, the leaf will eat the rice.


See, I cant explain Science to him. HOW?!

Anyway back to Science, I'm actually quite worried. Cos last week when I was reading through the P4 Science textbook to prepare for the lesson, I suddenly forgot simple stuff like whats needed for photosynthesis. THIS IS SO WORRYING. And yeah, I'm gg do do Science in NUS la. I'm so scared and worried now. I'm like rusty. Is it just me or does everyone else feel the same?

Met up with Yitshan to catch She's The Man today. Its helluva hilarious moive, sweet and touching too. HA. I'm a sucker for love comedies. Channing Tatum is my new obsession. okay , maybe not, but he currently tops my list of the hottest guys.


Go catch that show now. Its really good.

Anyway we basically walked around and talked abt people and stuff. haha. right. gossip maybe. well, whatever. It was nice catching up with her. Visited Sharon at Venezia and I bought the green tea ice-cream, which Sharon was very generous with. My cup was like overflowing. heh.


SIGH tuition tomorrow, and I'm feeling so lazy.ARGH.

I EAT TOO MUCH. OKAY SHIT.


Anyways, HI to regular meals and lotsa time for myself, and BYE to irregular meals, stuck-up snoobish customers and hrs of slogging.

I'm now an official bummer. Well, except on Tues and Thurs which is packed with tuition assignments from morning to evening. Other than that, I'm free and slacking. YAY.

But thats not to say I dun miss the people there. I do, and I did feel a tinge of sadness when Seri hugged me that day and reminded me to visit when she goes over to FlashnSplash Novena once it opens in ard Oct. I do miss the people there, they're a pretty nice and funny bunch and I would def return to visit!

Right now, I just enjoy lazing abt. and catching up with my friends. teeheehee.

Had the UNRcumFamine leadership training camp at SA yest, which was well, a total bore. Hopefully the actual camp next week would be more entertaining.
Headed with Vic to Marina thereafter to window shop, after which I met my family for a nice yummy dinner.


Prob meeting Yitshan for a movie tomorrow. YAY again.


SHIT I EAT TOO MUCH. SHIT SHIT SHIT. OKAY BYE.
I'M GONNA FOLLOW VICKI'S PLAN.


AND SHIT. I feel like shit for not gg for the DXO party last night. EVERYONE, yes EVERYONE's telling me HOW GOOD IT WAS. SHIT.

Its always so annoying that Topshop keeps having new arrivals, and they ALWAYS display the new stuffs RIGHT IN FRONT of Surfergirl. haha. It just tempts me so much! Makes me spend spend spend. oh wells. I cant spend so much already. cos I'm gonna stop working soon. haha. Tutoring 2 Primary sch kids doesnt earn me alot, though I would say the hourly rate is much better la.

Anyway met Amanda at Potong Pasir today to collect our A Level certs from school. We arranged to meet earlier so that we could have lunch there. I miss the Malay stall so much!
I only realised (to my horror) this morning, that its the sch hols now and the canteen wouldn't be opened! Well, only the drink stall. And the funnyman uncle actually recognised us! It just felt good, I mean, at least u dun feel forgotten.
So we had our lunch at the Potong Pasir neighbourhood, which has many snack stalls and coffeeshops. We went to this particular coffeeshop cos we saw SA pple there, thus concluded the food there must be not bad. Furthermore, the ban mian there costs just $2.50!
Thats VERY attractive if u've been eating at Wisma's Food Republic for like 3 mths plus, where almost nothing costs less than $3.80!

But the ban mian at that particular Potong Pasir coffeeshop turned out to be the worst ban mian I've ever eaten!

But still, Potong Pasir shall be my new hangout cos of all the snack stalls and coffeeshops there. Food is so attainable there! Unlike my area, where there are pathetically few places to eat. Not even a single, decent coffeeshop. Anyway, Potong Pasir is so near where I live, so YAY! My new makan hangout once I stop work. Oh yeah, can go back to SA for food also! ha!

Yay. 4 more working days, inc today. ha!ha!ha!

Today marks my very last off day, since next week, being my last week of work, I won't be entitled to any off day.

Oh, anyway today I had my first tuition lesson with this Sec 1 China girl in the morning. English and Science. haha. and I dropped her after her first lesson, cos I wasn't very confident of improving her standard of English, given that she started learning English only in Pri 4 when she came to Singapore. I mean, given that she's been exposed to the language for only 3 yrs plus, her standard's already not too bad, but not good enough for a Sec 1 girl. And I'd feel really bad if I can't help her improve. Furthermore, I am not really comfortable with Sec 1 Science cos of the Physics component. Physics-the very bane of my existence. haha. I still remember liking Physics alot in Sec 3 cos I scored A1 all the way (well, almost.HAHA.) But suddenly in Sec 4, for-who-knows-what-reasons, I started getting Cs and the occasional Fs for this subject. I then begun disliking it so much. okay anyway, I shant digress.

Yeah, so when I reached home after that, after much thought, I decided to call her mum, this really nice China lady, and told her that I wont be able to continue tutoring her daughter. I told her that I won't charge her for this lesson, but she insisted that she pay me. So I walked over to her place again in the afternoon (yeah, she lives within walking distance from me) to collect the fee for today's lesson. I FELT SO BAD!.
Dun ask me how much I got, the tuition agency is so ngiao, they still want a 50% cut of the first lesson. WTH LAH.

Anyway, I still feel so bad. shit shit shit.

Oh yeah, then as I was walking home after that, this sicko teeko uncle cycled past me and said to me 'wah, hen mei hen piao liang'. BLOODY HELL. shit him man. Such perverts should be banished and obliterated from this universe. I wish I could gauge out his eye balls and stew them and feed them to the dogs.

Jessica came to visit me at work that day and commented that I look tired and exhausted. haha. yeah maybe. I feel so shagged. But hey, next Friday is coming soon!yay-ness.
Just in time for World Cup. Not that I'm a soccer fanatic anyway, haha I just wanna oogle at my cute Japanese soccer players. Think: Hidetoshi Nakata. I'm as shallow as that, hows that? heh.


And I'm not too sure if I wanna take up tuiotion assignments so soon. I mean, I wanna slack for a while first after quitting. Reading, eating, sleeping, shopping, chilling out and taitai-ing with my friends. HA! I'm sucha bum. I wanna catch up with so many people!

Plus there are all the camps. This guy from Sheares Hall just called to ask me to go for the Sheares Hall camp. The way he said it, it seems like Hall life is gonna be so exciting, and when I told him that although I so wanna live in the halls but am too lazy to pack/unpack/settle my own neccesities (my supply of cereals, oats, and fruits so wonderfully available at home sweet home)/share common toilet/blah blah blah, he siad that there really isn't much to bring over. (but then again, how much stuff does a guy have/needs?!) He said its gonna be damn fun living in the halls. I'll ask Petrina abt it when she comes back from Shanghai. I certainly won't go for the camp ALONE!
I think I might do what the guy told me, which is to apply for the halls first, then decide later. YAY. Remind me pls. the deadline is 11th June!


OKAY, I'm gonna watch SI2 which my sis taped down for me! BYE! and go to sleep if u can, the weather's good!=))

Caught the DaVinci Code. It was ok la. I mean, it wasn't that bad. But I was so shagged from working the previous day I actaully dozed off for like 5 mins halfway during the movie ( yes yes, blame it on work again, HA!). Fortunately I didn't miss out much. Audrey Tatou has darn nice legs. In case u dun noe, I have a thing for girls with nice legs. I like looking at girls' legs. HEH.

As 9th June approaches, time seems to be crawling even slower. slower than ever. it sucks big time.

Pple have been telling me that 9th June isn't far away. Its only 2 more weeks. But hey, to me, its 2 darn freakin more weeks (ITS 12 MORE DAYS! and the last wk of work I wont be entitled to any off day. HOW SAD!) . HOW ON EARTH AM I GONNA EVER SURVIVE THAT?!


I'm lazy and I'm spoilt. I wanna live a tai tai life. (nah, I'm kidding) I just wanna do sth that I enjoy.

HOW TO SURVIVE TILL 9TH JUNE?!?!?!

Depressed mode. AGAIN.

Off day today, though I'm not too sure if I wanna hit town. I'm like so tired and shagged from working everyday. Yea, I'm lousy. I really really really can't wait for the 9th of June. No words can express my eagerness for that day to come. Working 6 days a wk, inc Sundays (how sad! its family day!), 8.5 or more a day, is really no easy feat, esp for me, since this is the first full time job I've taken up after graduating. It has really taken up so much of my time, time I have to spend with my family, my friends, and even time for myself. I really miss those days when I was just slacking and bumping around doing nth, those wake up/breakfast/sleep/lunch/nap/tv/dinner/sleep days. Hey u noe what, I even miss my home so much. I realise I spend quite little time at home, I miss my bed and my corner of the blu couch so much. I'm serious, not kidding at all. Those afternoons where I just slack there, reading my book/magazines or whatever, I miss them. Big time. SIGH. Yes, I'm actually a home-body/home-person. or whatever u call that.

And after my last day or work on the 9th, Ive got a camp on the 10th. This is followed by the Sheares Hall camp (if I'm gg. I've not yet decided. cos I'm not too sure if I wanna stay in the halls. read below. haha) which is on the 12th to 15th. Then there's the Under No Roof camp on the 17th and 18th. And on the 26th to 30th, there's SCAMP. Its the Science Fac camp.

NO TIME FOR GSS SHOPPING AT ALL! HOW SAD!

I feel so upset that I've been spending so little time at home, it has even dampened my spirits to live in the Uni halls once school starts. I was so looking forward to hostel life, it'd be so much fun, but now, I really just wanna stay at home. I'm not too sure if I wanna apply for the halls already. Sure, its convenient in the sense that I can be spared from travelling to and fro (and of cos, late night suppers with friends and stuff like that. heh.) , but its also inconvenient at the same time cos i would have to bring my stuff over. Clothes, toiletries, ecetera ecetera. I would have a million and one things to bring over. Girls are troublsome creatures. All the packing and unpacking puts me off totally. Oh and yes, the sharing of common toilet and kitchen! I wouldn't really fancy that also. And if I stay in the hostel, I would have lesser or no more fruits oats cereals which are so easily within my reach at home. So, maybe not staying in the Uni halls would be a better choice after all. Though I reckon I would be missing out on a lot of fun. Hall life is exciting and vibrant I heard. I'm just too lazy I guess.

I detest deciding. Decisions one after another. I've to decide fast cos the deadline for applying for the halls is on the 11th June. OH WELLS!


My mum thinks I worry and get depressed over the slightest matters. Maybe. But its just me. haha. shit la, I wanna stay in the halls. but I'm lazy to do the stupid packing and unpacking. the shifting of stuff. and my cereal oats and fruits. Ok I'm not gonna go on and on. haha. I realise I'm too dependent. and LAZY.



SHIT SHIT SHIT. I need to hurry up decide.

I'm upset cos I lost my toe ring that day at Zouk. oh sigh. I'm not gonna buy myself another one. yet. I need to save. I'm gonna try to stop spending so much. (is the GSS not already here yet?!). right.

Anyway, bumped in Raphael yest in town. I've not seen him in like a million yrs! The last time I saw him was in late Oct/early Nov last yr. haha.

Counting down.=)

Rugby match yesterday was a good one. Definitely a match worth watching, and of cos, a match worth travelling all the way down to CCK Home Team Academy (tucked away in an ulu part of Singapore). SAJC actually beat RJC in the finals. So now we're the champion. Thats like the first time in 10 yrs plus, since AC and RJ have always been in our way. The estacy that filled the air was indescribable I tell u.
Had dinner at CCK Lot 1 with Pet after that. It's so funny that she hasn't heard of this heartland mall before. haha.

And at night it was off to Zouk with Vicki Shumin and Sisi. It wasn't too bad, just that it was too crowded somehow. Saw qt a few familiar faces there though, and Laura too. haha.
Left the place at ard 145 and headed to Obar where Andy the Ben were, though we didn't meet them there when we reached the place. Went up to Dbl O and stayed there for qt a while before deciding to have bak kut teh. btw the music at Dbl O was really gd. as good as, if not better, than Phuture.

The bak kut teh there was a rip off, like totally. Extremely over-priced. wth. Anyway halfway through our bak kut teh Andy called and I told him we had already left Obar, and so he came over as well with this other staff Brandon from Hereen.

Shared a cab with Shumin home after that. Morning shift today and I was so so so shagged. I've nv felt so sleepy working before. Well, 4.5 hrs of sleep is nv enough.


My next off day is next Fri. Thats more then a week of work before my next off day. How sad!

yay, Da Vinci Code has opened!=))))).

And so, after much consideration (well, maybe not alot), I've chosen and accepted NUS Sch of Science over NTU's Communication Studies. Well, that was a really tough decision, since I really am interested in mass com. But I guess, I'm not a risk-taker, and would rather not try something new, lest I fail in it, which would then be very sad. aiyah I dunno. I actually accepted NUS Science with a heavy heart, not that I dun wish to take up Science, its just that I really couldn't bear to reject Communication studies. I've friends who told me that Mass Com is not easy to get in, unlike NUS Science, and this made me feel so ugh-ish. I seriously dislike decision-making. But well, whats done is done, and since I've already chosen NUS Science, I might as well make the best out of it (and no, I dun wanna be a teacher, maybe, only as a last resort), and hope that its a decision that I wont regret making.

My com died (for a day).

Anw got down to Orchard Library to borrow some books to pass my time since I thought my uncle would take a few days to repair my com. But yay, its fixed now!

I'm gg down for the rugby finals next Wed. SAJC vs RJC. Its gonna be helluva exciting match. I still remember last yr's!!!!!

Mambo too with the girls. yayness. I so can't wait for my next off day.=)


New chapter, new everything. I'm ending my working stint on the 10th June.

My off days pass so quickly, but working days are sucha drag! oh wells. Its gonna be back to work tomorrow, and its gonna be a million yrs till my next off day. And I'm serious. SIGH!

NUS Induction session today with Petrina. There was food, buffet style. HA!HA!

Anyway headed to town after that, where Pet bought a Roxy denim shorts using the coupon.
It was hilarious when we were making our way down to Hereen, along the Istana.

Cos it was like already dark (8 plus), and Pet took out her shades to wear, and so I followed suit. So there we were, looking like two bimbotic crazy girls wearing shades at night.

Pet: " eh we should be friendly and wave to those drivers that turn to our direction "
Joyce: " haha, yeah maybe. cos anyway we probably won't be seeing them for the rest of our lives "
Pet: " or maybe we should just wave to any passer-by"

So at Meridien Hotel, we were just walking when Pet suddenly waved to this middle-aged lady who walked past her.
U should have seen that lady's expression! Her eyes were as huge as golf balls, and she looked quite frightened and freaked out, she quickly walked away. It was hilarious shit I couldn't contain my laughter, and Pet claimed that I gave her away with my oh-so-terrible laughter. But well, I really couldn't help it.


I did the same thing at Centrepoint too, when I walked past this lady who was waiting at the bus stop.
I waved to her and quickly walked away, with Pet following behind me. I couldn't bear to look at her expression for fear that I might burst out laughing.
To my amusement, according to Pet, she actually replied with a 'hey!'. haha damn funny. She probably thought I am her friend or something.

oh wells. just some cheap thrill to add to our otherwise mundane lives.



work work work.

Photos from company's DnD are finally up. after much procrastination. Rouge just now was boring. oh wells.

It's almost 2.30am now, and I heard the thunder. I think it's gonna rain. I'm gonna swing. not cos of the rain though.

I got accepted into NTU Mass Com. Now I'm in a dilemma. One thing abt NTU is the distance, which totally puts me off. Its so deep in a forested area, its near the goat farm haha. Then again, I do have an interest in mass com, it sounds fun, but what if I can't excel in it? I still wanna graduate with my degree, and I'm so not gonna waste my 4 yrs there, esp so, since its a 4 yrs direct honours course. There's gonna be quite a bit of risk-taking involved. Communication studies is sth new after all, while Science is safer, in the sense that I've been doing it for like 6 yrs. And the NUS Science course its not a direct honours one. Sigh. So how?

I dun like to make decisions. like seriously.


oh yeah, and I've also gotta consider the career prospects. oh wells.

Another thing thats drving me nuts is the fact that the earliest date for my driving test is 2 mths later, though I've booked it like last mth. ah, sigh.


I feel like I'm a soyabean milk maid now, haha, thrust with the duty of buying Andy's and Zeela's daily dosage of Jollibean soyabean milk, and of cos, my own too. I'm addicted to it. =)


I'm still feeling emo and pms-y. oh wells.



emo emo emo pms pms pms emo emo emo pms pms pms emo emo emo pms pms pms.


Oh, did I mention that I'm still VERY UBER upset that I used my hair mask, and caused my red streaks (which I really adored) to turn to brown streaks? I still can't get over the loss of my red streaks. really. The brown that my streaks have turned to, is so common. I'm no longer red and special. Yeah I sure sound bimbotic. Well, whatever. I'm upset.

I haven't worn shoes for quite a long time, they give me blisters when I wear them now.

Comapny dinner last night was ok. Chilled out at this pretty cosy pub at the Esplanade after that with the colleagues.

msn with tecko aka THE CHINA MAN this morn made me feel slightly better this morn, but yes, only for a while. emo all over again.

ha.

but still, I'm thankful for friends like that. Friends u can really talk too and not feel embarrassed or whatever shit. yea.